The Dream

I had this dream and I was so embarassed within it that I feel embarassed now just thinking about it.

In my dream my crush is riding this bright pink sport bike almost exactly like the one in the above picture.  He is on a race track and I am riding my pedal ghetto granny cruiser bicycle Trudel on the inside of the track trying to keep up with him.  In between us is another guy riding a blue sport bike with a black helmet on.  He comes in between us but then recedes to the back as my crush speeds ahead.   In the dream I'm embarrassed because I am pedalling trying to catch up with him in order to see him, hoping he will see me but at the same time hoping he won't see me.  He sees me and I awkwardly wave to him and say hello two decimals higher than intended.  He looks back at me and waves to me, but it is one of those "I feel sorry for you so I'm going to wave back to be nice" sort of waves.

I've been trying to figure out what this means.  I can remember before falling asleep asking God to give me a dream about my crush so that I could figure out why it won't work, sometimes God speaks to me through dreams.  I know that this one has meaning to it but I'm not quite sure what it is.

So, I love my bike, I have a hard time getting over my crush because... well it takes me a long time to get over anyone and I have to keep myself from asking about them to other people.  Said crush likes motorcycles so is that why he is on one.  I wanna know who the blue guy in the middle is, is he suppose to represent god getting in between us so that it won't happen?  Is crush just as embarrassed as I am because he is riding a pink bike and I read his sympathy wave all wrong?

Dear Crush, can you just die so that I can stop thinking about you.  Okay, don't die, can you just get married.