Its New Years and for the first time in a long time I spent it with my parents. We watched Julie and Julia, I loved it! I loved the men in the movie and how they stood by their wives and their endeavers. I am a Julie, trying to slowly find my way in life one move at a time and when I say move I literally mean move. Boarding in Scarbrough,Texas with five other girls I didn't know in one room (try that 2x), Toronto in dorm, Sarnia for the Summer, Toronto dorm, Sarnia for the Summer, Toronoto in dorm and then in an apartment sharing a room with a stranger, Sarnia for the Summer, Outskirts of Picton boarding againg (on a hobby farm no less), other outskirts of Picton boarding again, Sarnia again and more Sarnia, Toronto inner core, move from landlord who treats his wife like crap to other Toronto living, Richmondhill during the week and Toronto on the weekends in the Summer, Toronto....and now just over one hour North East of Toronto with a room-mate who doesn't use toilet paper, and then....where to who knows....if you want to be with me be prepared to move because thats just the way that I roll. Not because I like it but because I have to, I gaurantee their will be food, I will be emotional when life is stressing me out and I don't feel like I'll ever turn into a grown-up who makes money so that I can have elaborate dinner parties and wear posh dresses. I want to live in NYC for a short time, paying copious amounts of healthcare, living simply and buying beautiful things every so often that I see in windows.
I'll clean and then I won't for prolonged periods of time and then I'll clean until I'm exhausted because I can't stand the filth we are living in.
Dear Love, your late, your really late. So late that you've reduced me to tears a couple times.... this Christmas for the first time I cried because you weren't here. I thought I found you recently, their were some signs I strung together and thought they pointed to you but then I realized like everyone who is infatuated they were just things I strung together hoping that he might be you. What I really want is to find home in you, you would be the stable constant I would have amongst my chaotic life of moves and more moves.
