Dear Old Crush

I think I still like you.   Every time I see you it's like drinking a cup of hot cocoa, you make me all warm and comforted inside.  I love your cheshire cat smile, your confidence and yet lack of confidence at the same time, how easy going you are, your casual stride, your ability to engage anyone in conversation... I would really like to be with you but I don't know if I'm pretty enough or cool enough to be with someone like you.

Words of Wisdom To Self

Don't start liking men younger than you who are only single because their 'ex'-girlfriends are away in another country or are just too far away to see each other anymore.

If I'm going to do this teacher thing I want it to be like Happy Go Lucky.

Dear Crushe's Female Friend

I don't really like you, your too perfect.  I know your good friends with his ex.  Tonight when I saw you at the grocery store, I kinda foregot about the way you treated me on Halloween and I said hello.  I could tell you did not want to linger.  I know your friend was anxious to get something off the shelf somewhere but your giggly girl laughs could have been mistook for laughter at me.  How are you in nursing, able to volunteer, work and be social all at the same time... ya your a brainiac and I can't stand it.